Moments I cherish and want to remember forever. Accomplishments. Hope.
~ My page got to 2500 likes
~Published for the 1st time in D'lovely desires edition of D'lovely publications magazine
~ Booked my photo shoot with Cat Tetreault Photography and mentoring session With Bianca Bombshell
~ Published in D'lovely derrieres
~ Published in Fashion bombshell issue 12 -boudoir edition
~ Published in Fashion Bombshell Issue 13 - The Black/White Edition
~ Published in Fashion Bombshell Issue 14: Spring Pinup Edition
~ Book cover for Red Reverie's book intermezzo
~ Met Bianca Bombshell and had an amazing shoot with Cat tertreault photography
~ Shot for the first time with Pin up perfection photography
~ Published in Risqué Pinups No. 3
~ Published in vicious vixens 2015 pinup calendar 18+
~ Made my own calendar
~ Sold some prints! exciting to think I am on someones wall!
~ got my first fan art by Godzillasmash1! he drew me twice! and my mom bought me his artwork as a christmas present <3
~Fan art done by Alex Jurck
~ My page reached 7000 likes !
~Had a Vintagebox1947 hairpiece named after me
And some regular life stuff that happened...
~ Celebrated my sons 6th birthday
~ Celebrated my 7th year of marriage to my wonderful husband
~ Got to go on vacations
~ Got a new vehicle
~ My baby brother, Dante, was born
~ I got to visit everyone in my family.
~ Started planning Disneyland trip march 2015!
Life has been good to me this year!
I have not been without struggles though. I have been having a terrible time health wise. I just cannot seem to get my thyroid to stay in a normal range and so I suffer dizzy spells , sweating, moodiness, sleeplessness, no tolerance for hot or cold. As hard as it is on me it is even harder on my husband who I have to admit gets my badness taken out on him more often than he should. If I am feeling sick I have no patience and snap easily. I suffer from anxiety and so I am always accusing him of stupid things. But somehow he has managed to stay with me even when I take things out on him. I am really hoping that 2015 will bring my body and mind some stability.
Thank you to all the amazing people I have met this year and all those who have supported me in my journey! I wish you all the best in 2015!
Wednesday 31 December 2014
Saturday 13 December 2014
Bad days...
Everybody has them! those days when you just don't want to not be in your skin anymore. When your body suddenly becomes a hated enemy that is only working against you. Sometimes "BAD " is just not enough to describe these days!
I have had a few ,terrible,awful evil bad bad days, recently and I was getting more and more down on myself about being fat.I had been eating healthy and working out more and was starting to see results and then fell back into my bad habit of loving food a little too much! I felt like I was failing and instead of pushing myself harder I took the easy way out and gave up.I moped about it and stewed over it for 3 days and made myself hate my body and myself for not being strong enough to fight through cravings and follow through with my eating plans.
Then last night at my best friends house her soon to be daughter in law Miranda came in to the house and told me I looked like I had lost weight. This was something I really needed to hear from someone who wouldn't just say that ! I began to feel a bit better about my body and when I went home and looked in the mirror I saw what she saw!
Today I was getting ready for my photo shoot and I was angry because my hair wouldn't work and I was certain somehow these pictures would end up awful because how I have been feeling about myself would be obvious. But after fighting with my hair until it was decent and arriving to get my makeup done I slowly started to go back into what I like to call "sexy Linda mode". I remembered what Miranda said and I felt confident although not as confident as my usual self I have to admit.
My husband came in to lace my corsets up during the shoot and I was shocked to find my corsets had to be tightened till they were fully closed! I always have about a 2 inch gap.! I was so happy to have all these little things to remind me that I didn't fail and I can continue even if I have a few bad days.
I don't want to eat healthy and work out to get skinny! I just want to be healthy. It is a constant struggle for me because of my thyroid problems. After being diagnosed with graves disease and then having RAI (radioactive iodine) to kill of my thyroid I now take thyroid replacement pills for the rest of my life. That wouldn't be the most horrible thing except even after 10 years my meds never keep me in a good range for more then a few months before I am thrown to either way to high or way to low. It is a roller-coaster I wish I could get off of and makes my emotions ridiculous!
I learned today though that bad days eventually turn into good days and that it is fine to have bad days! I didn't fail at anything because I hated myself for a few days I just learned how to come back to feeling confident and proud of my body. Boudoir shoots work every time for me. So try not to beat yourself up over bad days just hold on till the good ones and come back even stronger for it!
Linda xoxoxoxo
I have had a few ,terrible,awful evil bad bad days, recently and I was getting more and more down on myself about being fat.I had been eating healthy and working out more and was starting to see results and then fell back into my bad habit of loving food a little too much! I felt like I was failing and instead of pushing myself harder I took the easy way out and gave up.I moped about it and stewed over it for 3 days and made myself hate my body and myself for not being strong enough to fight through cravings and follow through with my eating plans.
Then last night at my best friends house her soon to be daughter in law Miranda came in to the house and told me I looked like I had lost weight. This was something I really needed to hear from someone who wouldn't just say that ! I began to feel a bit better about my body and when I went home and looked in the mirror I saw what she saw!
Today I was getting ready for my photo shoot and I was angry because my hair wouldn't work and I was certain somehow these pictures would end up awful because how I have been feeling about myself would be obvious. But after fighting with my hair until it was decent and arriving to get my makeup done I slowly started to go back into what I like to call "sexy Linda mode". I remembered what Miranda said and I felt confident although not as confident as my usual self I have to admit.
My husband came in to lace my corsets up during the shoot and I was shocked to find my corsets had to be tightened till they were fully closed! I always have about a 2 inch gap.! I was so happy to have all these little things to remind me that I didn't fail and I can continue even if I have a few bad days.
I don't want to eat healthy and work out to get skinny! I just want to be healthy. It is a constant struggle for me because of my thyroid problems. After being diagnosed with graves disease and then having RAI (radioactive iodine) to kill of my thyroid I now take thyroid replacement pills for the rest of my life. That wouldn't be the most horrible thing except even after 10 years my meds never keep me in a good range for more then a few months before I am thrown to either way to high or way to low. It is a roller-coaster I wish I could get off of and makes my emotions ridiculous!
I learned today though that bad days eventually turn into good days and that it is fine to have bad days! I didn't fail at anything because I hated myself for a few days I just learned how to come back to feeling confident and proud of my body. Boudoir shoots work every time for me. So try not to beat yourself up over bad days just hold on till the good ones and come back even stronger for it!
Linda xoxoxoxo
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